It's been a good six months since I've updated. I ended up going to that guy's holiday party and spending the night. It was fucking awkward, as I felt like he was making a shit ton of excuses why he couldn't reconnect with me. I'm honestly glad we didn't reconnect; he's not in the the best place.
As I muddle through this life and my relationships, I remind myself to live an honest life. There are events that are going on without me, without initial information. Do I get upset? No, I do like the drunks and give it back into the universe. Do I feel like I'm missing out? No, I've other experiences to shape my life. I do feel, at times, that someone would give me a heads up so I don't feel like an outcast.
In the mean time, I've gone on three dates with a guy I met. He's rather sweet and handsome. We saw Star Wars: The Force Awakens in IMAX and 3D the other night. About 40 minutes in, we held hands. It was nice. It was sweet. It was terribly innocent and I relish in that fact. I love that things are moving along slowly. I bloody can't wait to see him again, as he makes me giddy.
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